Just a follow up. Life is simpler with less expectations. Yes, the connection isn’t as deep, but I don’t feel the sting of rejection. I can focus on my walk with Jesus. It is so much better.

No need to ache for me, though I appreciate the sentiment. It isn’t that we don’t have intimate times, more so than many, being 2-3 times a month. It is just all on her schedule and really lacks any passion these days. I have tried over and over again, but rejection gets tough, especially when it means my hands are physically taken away from her, and not in those intimate places but just on her lower back or stomach. It seems when I desire intimacy there are many other priorities. I am typically last in her list. I have found that ignoring this part of marriage and just focusing on my walk with Jesus makes it easier. Yes, my marriage seems emptier, but that is not the end all. One day I will have a new body and be made perfect. That day is coming sooner than later at this point in life.

Well, thank you. I never thought of it as a sad thing, but when I look back on it, it does sound that way. I guess it’s all just difficult for us to discuss and we really don’t know where to go to talk about it. Especially when there is trauma involved. I just want to feel free to love again and find a way to live that part of my life. I guess without that liberty, it is hard to find purpose for it.

That’s heartbreaking. And no, you’re not alone. This is a broken world, and too often people experience trauma around sex. I do wish more victims/survivors would seek help and healing, and I wish more resources were easily accessible for just that.

Oh, I ache for you. I would love to have your word be something like HOPE instead. But I get it. 🙏🙏🙏